window war

oh i havent done a blogpost for a long time
definitely because blogs are dead
which is okay
it would be good to have a large party with people where everyone does a huddle and someone does a speech and you all do that hand thing that hockey teams do and then everyone turns around and deletes their blogs
it would be exciting if the internet was closed for a day
really really bored 'in general'
okay
things that have happened

i was written about in an article in the observer
it was about 'new experimentalism'
it covered me and b s johnson and lydia davis and that mccarthy who isnt cormac
the article was also put on the guardian website
and written about in 3am and on bookslut

pretty much have a new favourite book which is one of hour television by kristina born
seems really strange that it didnt do better
really kind of hurt and i felt in awe and things

the dazed and confused article will come out i dont know when
seems like it will be a large picture of me and a small article
dennis cooper spoke to the lovely female writing the article about me
he said some very nice things
then i spoke to him and felt extremely nervous and couldnt speak so well

on wednesday i have an interview at a 'gourmet pie shop'
sounds really tasty

feel extremely frustrated at my hands
for not writing more
they seem very feeble
i keep telling them
'fucking get me a million pounds'
and they sort of look up
and sigh

saw star fucking hipsters play the other week
before the gig we were in the bar next door
and nico de gaillo was stood right there
and she was extremely extremely attractive
and very small
and i imagined her in a wedding dress and me saying
'you look like a million pounds'
and then her wrinkling her nose
and then me saying
'that's like one and a half million dollars'
and then her smiling
and then her saying
'i am very happy that we are getting married'
and then me saying
'this is the happiest day of my life'
and then later in bed when everyone has gone home
we are quite drunk
and i can say
'time to spend some of that money'

dear dignitas,
i think i am too boring
i think i am a dull person
and it would be best for everyone if you said yes
lots of love
benxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx