imagine if your heart was a rucksack (halping hands by holding them #2 omar de col)

it is day #3 of this hot new life. it is eveningtime. it was raining a lot this evening. i went for a walk. i like doing walking in the rain because things seem better maybe. if i look at a bike when it is not raining then i think 'that is just a bike, depressing' but if i look at a bike when it is raining then i think 'that is a bike, with water dripping off it, excellent'.

on the walk a sad looking man asked me which direction the thames was in. i said i didnt know. i thought 'is he going to jump into it' but he was wearing all waterproof clothes so i thought maybe not. 

photo of my bod 4 the day:

caption: i will never break your legs because my body is too small

last night me and crispin went to a poetry thing in a library. everyone was drinking red wine. one of the people reading said 'i wont read this one, it's racist', and another one of the humans who was reading earnestly said 'it's okay, everyone here is over 16'. it seemed like a weird night or something. 

now i am staring at my computer waiting for crispin to get home from work so i can interview him.

this video is very good

there's a new david attenborough thing called 'frozen planet'. it makes me think about the first book i had, 'heroes of polar exploration'. i used to read it a lot. like every night maybe. i didnt like the end chapters. there were machines in the end chapters. i liked the first ones. thinking about captain scott makes me sad. how when he reached the south pole amundsen had got there first and then on the way home he died. i used to draw maps of antarctica on everything and tell everyone that i was going to go there. i used to like imagining being sat alone in a small tent at the south pole. 

i still have the book. here is a bit from it i like:

'Dust had not returned to dust in the eternal cold of the graveyards. The dead vikings slept holding their crosses in folded hands; their clothing of shaggy woollen lay in the same creases as on the day of the burial. Their well preserved bodies were gnomelike, undersized, with bones bent from rickets and other deficiency diseases.

           Examination of these bodies revealed that few vikings had lived beyond their early twenties. Undernourished after many years of insufficient food, Greenland's once vigorous settlers had become stunted dwarfs. One explanation for this is that as Greenland's trade with europe was beginning to slacken, her climate coincidentally was undergoing a change. Gradually the cold became more and more severe. Pastures no longer grew tall grass, and the thinnings herds of cattle soon could not supply all the food the settlements needed. A slow process of malnutrition finally destroyed an entire civilisation.'

cosebelle did a very nice review of the italian grow up. 

'Element is not negligible, the writing of Ben is a river in flood, that will overwhelm the freshness of the clever deconstruction of the concepts and vocabulary, with surreal irony that draws a smile on his face even more melancholy, and wisdom, wisdom then you lose a kid who by years, wisdom amazed that leaps out of the commonplace, that challenges the conventional wisdom and is able to surprise and captivate like to know who he was until recently only child.'


how kind bb!

halping hands by holding them #2 omar de col:

omar is a young human from one of 'the mouths' in england. he runs this blog and joined the november blog revival with this great post.

 kellyhuckabyyy:  is ur shit together

ask me my opinion on current events or something

 me:  okay

hi omar

 kellyhuckabyyy:  lol

hi ben

 me:  the first few questions i am going to ask you are going to be questions that have been asked to linkin park in interviews

 kellyhuckabyyy:  lol sweet

 me:  Where are you? They told me that you would be calling from the RV travelling across the country.

 kellyhuckabyyy:  i am in the south of england on the second floor of a two story house the is moving because the world is spinning so its like an RV but with a fridge i guess also i am infront of my laptop

that*

shit

 me:  So, is everybody healthy?

 kellyhuckabyyy:  ye i guess so

we are all still more than zero and less than two ppl

 me:  I heard also that you guys are going to be going out with Papa Roach in December.

 kellyhuckabyyy:  lol jsz

papa roach's office christmas party ye its gonna be off the railings

 me:  So Linkin Park isn't named after anything?

 kellyhuckabyyy:  ye i heard it wot park they played in the first time

 me:  okay. that's enough of those.

 kellyhuckabyyy:  those were good

good journalism

 me:  now i am going to ask you a question that i was asked a few days ago

Recent events such as the London riots, the global recession and Middle Eastern revolutions have indicated that civilisation is undergoing an accelerating transformation. Why do you think this is the case?

 Sent at 9:22 PM on Thursday

 kellyhuckabyyy:  yo my browser crashed soz

 me:  that's okay

did you get that question

 kellyhuckabyyy:  ye i did

i am going to answer it

 me:  good

(twerp)

 Sent at 9:24 PM on Thursday

 kellyhuckabyyy:  hm

lol

riots seem funny, not sure what they achieve, keep thinking 'white ppls problems' RE the london riots, middle east is maybe because ppl got sick of the heat i guess

feel unsure about the word 'civilization'

and 'accelerating transformation'

wait

im not done

lol

 me:  here we go

 kellyhuckabyyy:  WAIT

hm

 Sent at 9:28 PM on Thursday

 kellyhuckabyyy:  feel like things like this in history happen a lot and in 15 years no one will care and these will just be wikipedia entries ppl will use to write essays for school and find sweet references

keep thinking abt the butterfly effect

the movie with ashton kutcher

 me:  you and those bloody butterflies

 kellyhuckabyyy:  feel like that movie will have more of an impact on society tbh

i think 'clueless' was maybe more important that the riots

okay that is all i can think

 me:  lol

how do you feel about the humans in london who are 'camped' outside of st pauls because other people in the world have more money than them or something

 kellyhuckabyyy:  keep thinking 'white ppls problems'

not sure

 Sent at 9:31 PM on Thursday

 kellyhuckabyyy:  i think when i hear ppl say variations of 'fuck capitalism' they aren't sure what they are talking about, and the word 'capitalism' is a word that ppl under 25 think is bad so they are like 'ye fuck capitalism' and make friends with other ppl under 25 and have parties where they say 'fuck capitalism' to each other

(when you said ppl camped outside st pauls i assume there are a lot of placards that say 'fuck capitalism' on them)

 me:  i think the placards say like '$=dickheads' and stuff

 kellyhuckabyyy:  lol

 me:  if you had to make a placard that showed your 'outlook on life' what would it say

 kellyhuckabyyy:  maybe like 'alive 4 life' or something

ben

i think i would find this easier if you emailed me questions or something

also i have to go smoke

 me:  omar this is going great

calm down

 kellyhuckabyyy:  haha

okay

wait lemme smoke

brb

 me:  it's almost 'a wrap'

 Sent at 9:37 PM on Thursday

 kellyhuckabyyy:  sweet

sry for ruining your evening

 me:  you are making my evening

 kellyhuckabyyy:  haha

self esteem +1

 me:  is there anything you have particularly strong views on at the moment omar

 kellyhuckabyyy:  yea

i signed a petition on avaz.org about a month ago

that was like

'save the bluefin tuna'

because i was rly into tuna are that point

but now they keep emailing me links to other petitions

and tbh i only care abt tuna

and i feel strongly that they shouldnt email me

but i kinda like getting emails and feeling strongly about something

so i haven't unsubscribed from it

so i don't even know what i am or who is this

 me:  when was the last time you did a tear from your eye

 Sent at 9:47 PM on Thursday

 kellyhuckabyyy:  about two weeks ago i cried a lot one night due to [various family dramas]

i only cry about once a year i thin

k

 me:  im sorry to hear that

what sound do you make when you cry

i am being probing. i am louis theroux.

 kellyhuckabyyy:  haha

i think when i cry i sound like i am laughing

i hiccup as well

my skin goes from yellow to reddish yellow

like a peach

 me:  that was beautiful

thankyou for being interview by me omar

 kellyhuckabyyy:  haha

its ok

thank you for interviewering me ben

feel rly hot in my jumper but feel too lazy to take it off

fact fans: i have learned how to not have the times next to all the questions. the words are still a bit to the right now though. 

now the words are on the left again. this is unbelievable. have fun eaten ur foods erryboddy. merry christmiss